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At some point, Im going DOWN

Hi Mr Khan,

Urghh, I really dont know how to explain this feeling right now. Neither wanna cry nor be as a happy person. But, surely im in depressed mode. All the time in my life, really really dont have this feeling as i do right now.

At the young age of five, i started to learn about school and yet until now i am in school. Yup, school is the second home for me since i know the meaning of that name. I would never ever going to miss or skip any single class even im in sick.

But,

Then, one time comes and you fell like ’ thats it’…enough what im doing.

At some point, I really want to say to myself…

kamaliah, dah! cukup setakat ni saja. tak payyah nak peningkan kepala, bebankan minda dan hati

Bila terigatkan balik pengalaman interview, pegalaman meet someone, pegalaman masa belajar lepas, tetiba rasa semuanya dah cukup, sudah cukup semuanya kamaliah, tak payah dah nak sakitkan kepala buat itu ini lagi. Berhenti sekarang atau pahit yang menanti.

Sebenarnya apa masalahnya nie! Urghh..pasal tak boleh nak focus buat assignment? Wehh, macamlah ko tak pernah buat sebelum nie kan!

Bukan! Yang nie lagi stress. Ko mana tau, ko tak rasa. Dulu belajar tak der la rasa stress macam nie sekali. Siap boleh enjoy sana sini. Jap, jap…sekarang pun belajar sambil enjoy jugak kan. Sapa suruh ko sambung hari tu. Jangan nak salahkan orang lain. Weh, jap! Ada aku cakap aku salahkan orang lain? Tak der kan!

Tetiba fikiran nie dihantui..

kamaliah, dah. lepas nie tak payah nak saambung lagi. tak payah nak susah payah sakit kepala belajar lagi!

bila habis, ko kawen jadi isteri jaga anak kat rumah tak payah nak kerja. 

Aduh! Bila datang rasa fed up, down, semua jadi gila. Habis, selama nie aku belajar susah payah, nak jadi orang rumah jer. Weh, ko ingat tak mulia ke jadi suri rumah. Ko lagi best nanti, jadi suri rumah yang berpengetahuan. Boleh ajar anak-anak sendiri kat rumah.

Jap! Jap! Sapa kata aku fed up! Urgh..Tak! Tak! No! No! Aku stress jer!

Owkey, hey Mr Khan. What should i do huh? Confuse meh!

Life is like dancing. If we have a big floor, many people will dance. Some will get angry when the rhythm changes. But life is changing all the time.
- Miguel Angel Rui -
Sayonara…soon well be here again. IAllah :) - Chubu Centrair International Airport, Nagoya
Nagashima Spaland - shopping time - hopefully one day i’ll be here again :)
Ilmu yang dicari, pengalaman yang dikumpul, semuanya mengajar kita erti kehidupan yang sebenar.
P/s: second day at nagoya…bunga sakura yang dikejar
When the time that i dont know the real me, hope somebody could reach me before im drowning too far. Life would never be perfect always, there is the time im good in throwing myself to something, but there also the time that im forget to stop me doing something that hurt people so much.
Life may begin when you are drift far away from others. And that time you realise that you should never act in that way.
Life is goes around and the time will come around.
P/s: somebody please punch till im wake up…

[Verse 1:]
What would I do without your smart mouth?
Drawing me in, and you kicking me out
You’ve got my head spinning, no kidding, I can’t pin you down
What’s going on in that beautiful mind
I’m on your magical mystery ride
And I’m so dizzy, don’t know what hit me, but I’ll be alright

[Pre-Chorus:]
My head’s under water
But I’m breathing fine
You’re crazy and I’m out of my mind

[Chorus:]
'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I’ll give my all to you
You’re my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I’m winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, oh

[Verse 2:]
How many times do I have to tell you
Even when you’re crying you’re beautiful too
The world is beating you down, I’m around through every mood
You’re my downfall, you’re my muse
My worst distraction, my rhythm and blues
I can’t stop singing, it’s ringing, in my head for you

[Pre-Chorus:]
My head’s under water
But I’m breathing fine
You’re crazy and I’m out of my mind

[Chorus:]
'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I’ll give my all to you
You’re my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I’m winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, oh

[Bridge:]
Give me all of you
Cards on the table, we’re both showing hearts
Risking it all, though it’s hard

[Chorus:]
'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I’ll give my all to you
You’re my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I’m winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you

I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, oh